Step # 10   Questions

Why did this happen to me? What will happen to me? Is my tumor growing? Do I really need treatment? If so, radiation or surgery? Which doctor? Where?

Can my prayers and the prayers of others make a difference? I’m so thankful for courage to talk to the doctor about prayer. He told me about a study he had just read that had to do with prayer. Patients about to have surgery who had people praying for them had better results than those who didn’t have people praying for them. Yes, prayer works.

Trouble is, it doesn’t always work the way we want it to. Why is that? Can prayer ever redirect God’s plans?

With so many questions, I finally called The Acoustic Neuroma Association and learned support groups are available for those with acoustic neuromas. I’m not alone. Others are fighting this rare disease. Maybe I can get some answers at a support group meeting.

Dear God,

It’s easy for me to pray for others. I’m having trouble knowing how to pray for myself. I can’t seem to find the words. You tell us to ask for what we want, so I will come out and ask for healing without treatment. Is that even possible? Nothing is impossible for you. I believe that.

I know my prayers should be for your will. Do you want my will? That’s the real question. You want my love, my trust, my faith. I know all that. But my will? I can’t answer that one. Amen. 

And the Holy Spirit helps us in our distress. For we don’t even know what we should pray for, nor how we should pray. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. Romans 8:26