#22 Help!

I remember when we were trying to get pregnant. Every twenty-eight days I cried my eyes out. I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t get pregnant. All the tests kept coming back normal. It reached a point where the doctors wanted to repeat the tests. Somehow I knew then that God’s plan for us didn’t include pregnancy. But why?

The very first moment we held our adopted son we both knew why. We wouldn’t be his parents if pregnancy had happened. God planned this baby for us to be a family. Praise the Lord.

It is so much easier to look back and see God at work. In the middle of questions, when life doesn’t make any sense at all, we learn to trust. A higher power is at work with a plan that is far greater than any plan we could come up with.

The same thing happened when mom had her breast cancer and came to live with us for her surgery and radiation. Once more we questioned why. Yet during the radiation we learned many macular degeneration patients lacked information. Mom and I started working on a booklet called Yes I Can.

I don’t think the booklet idea would have happened if we hadn’t met so many people who asked mom eye questions: where can I buy a talking watch, how do you shop, does your white cane help, how did you learn to use it. The list of questions got longer and longer.

The booklet never got professionally published, but eventually it turned into the Yes I Can blog on this website.

These are just two examples of when I can look back on my life and see God at work. So when I ask for God’s help today, I can trust he continues to work out his plans for my life. This tumor is part of me, so it’s part of God’s plan for my life. Eventually I will learn why. The learning might not come in this lifetime. It might be I won’t get the answer until the afterlife with a new body, a body that won’t have to fight illness.

That will truly be a A NEW ME forever.

In the meanwhile I will ask for God’s help to get through each day. A day at a time. Right now that includes figuring out treatment – where if necessary, and when.

*****

Readers: When have you seen God at work in your life? Can you trust that he is at work today in your life?

*****

Dear God,

You have always helped me in the past. I can look back and see that. You will be with me in the future. Help me to not worry about tomorrow. I ask only for your help for today. Amen.

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.  Philippians 4:6